Well, I have had the most interesting few days that I have had in a while. Not for any other reason than my own stupidity. I woke up Sunday in a bit of a bad mood. I shoudl have known not to practice, because whether I practice singing or piano, I always leave the studio much less happy and much less confident of myself. So yeah, I woke up not feeling very happy at all, and when I got out of the studio, I was an absolute wreck! And you can ask Jeremy, he was there!! I was AWFULL!!! And the fact that Jeremy was patient and kind about my stupidity is one of the most wonderful things about him....He is the most patient person that I know! And God used him to show me a lot about my own self-centeredness, my own depravity, and also all about a truly caring, humble heart that is willing to sit with you and watch you cry and hug you when you need it. And when I cry, I tend to cry a lot, so props to Jeremy!! = ) But then, after that, we got somehting to eat, and watched a little bit of Alias. I thought it all passed...but come Monday Morning, I was still in a rotten mood....my heart was so heavy, and I didn't know why! I went to my lesson, and Doc saw that I was not ok. I started crying (again!) and he was kind enough to be flexible and loving and was willing to reschedule my lesson. With all that Doc has gone through this year with his son and his wife, let alone this weekend and Connie's emergency Appendectamy, it amazes me every time I look at Doc, and see him smile, and hear him pray, and see the way he loves people still.... I don't think that I would respond that way. I would begin to get down on myself, and I would be too hard on those around me. And Doc isn't. At all. He's such an example of love and grace flowing out of a heart that is truly in Love with the Only One that matters. He encourages me.
God has blessed me with so many amazing freinds and family memebers... Why is it (HOW, even) that I get so absorbed in myself and my petty little desires and needs and feelings?
Man....I have such a long way to go.
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